Express your Expression.

The Crazy Week.

Yes people. It has been a crazy week. Why? I’m sure you’re wondering why..

So let’s say, last friday is my final presentation.. my last day of school! And I have to prepare a lot.. and yes, too many things to be done in too little time. That sucks but it’s nature to me.. I love doing stuffs last minute. Haha.

So, I went to the printing shop like a day before my presentation, did my video reel and website layout at night, without sleep till the next presentation. Wait I lied, I slept a little in between. Haha. And special credits to a friend of mine, Nur Iman Izam who helped me a lot in my website coding. Dude, you helped me a lot!. It was a crazy week because I was late for presentation too.. gee, That sucks. Really sucked beacuse burning the disc took me some time.. haha.

Well, I really don’t know what I should include now.. but I have you guys know something.. I’m a free bird now!!!! Which soon be caged in NS.. awww sucked again. Haha. And anw, to all Muslims out there.. Selamat Mejalani Ibadah Berpuasa! HEE!!!

love,
cruise.

Learning.

Yo peeps.

I couldn’t sleep last night so..I went to this few websites about humor, inspiration quotes and so on.. Just one that I want to share though, about inspirational quotes..

““When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”” – Paulo Coelho

Tell me people.. what do you think of this line? Tell me all your opinion and share it with me. Msn or comment through here, or even email me.

I feel positive over this line.. because to think of this.. what we reach for is more than that what we’ve lost.. I don’t mean that we shouldn’t care about what we’ve lost, but to move on and reach out for something even better.. because we are all humans.. And knowing ourselves.. we always want better. Don’t you think so? Stop lying to yourself.. Tell me, when your parents bought you a G-shock watch, a few weeks, month and years later.. You want a Rolex. When your friends bought you a Puma shoe, you wanted a Nike ones.. Brands.. Appearances that’s what matter to us, through this human eyes. And we’re always hungry for something better.

I can’t believe I kept this mind thinking, working about such line.. But yea.. It even made ‘it’ work when I go through one of my friends nick in MSN:- We learn to love not by finding the perfect match but by seeing the imperfect partner perfectly.” Life is never perfect until you learn the imperfects. Man will never be perfect unless he learns how imperfect he was..

cruise.

This is the Life.

Has anyone heard the song This is the life by Amy Mcdonald? Well, just to share though, it’s my new favourite song!!! Hehe. I’m always stucked with a song, and will keep it repeactable on my itunes. Heehee.. But that’s just not it.. Let me share a little of my life..

…….. (long silence) If I were to typed everything.. it would take 10-100 pages.. So lets conclude it.. “I can heal any body part, except this broken heart.” That’s right.. The first few days, the first week.. It was hard to actually accept this.. It’s even worst when things you believed were just white lies.. And it’s even SUPER worst, when what she said meant nothing at all.. You guys are right, words are all words.. wishes are all wishes is they never were taken in consideration.. But it’s funny how we think that words and dreams are the nicest thing you ever feel.. To me.. learning the worst was the stepping stone to building up my life.. into better meaning. Even after all that we’ve been through.. If I’m a jerk.. this would be the line :-

“All the time I wasted on you
All the bullshit you put me through
I’m checking into rehab
Cause everything that we had
Didn’t mean a thing to you”

But.. Best of luck to you.. Wish you the best for future..

So, only the closest friend or friends that I’m comfortable sharing my personal probs would know what Actually I have gone through.. Some said I’m stupid, some gave me good advices.. Thank you people. You made me feel better. Afterall, This is the life where One that has to go through, one has to face and learn possible solutions and prepared for more obstacles. There are someone out there that wouldn’t have to face all this.. We’re all uniques, and life we go through are unique..

love,
cruise.

The Fight

Yo peeps..

There’s just a few things I like to discuss with and share with.. Life hasn’t been the way I’ve expected it to be.. And most importantly, I’ve lost what I’ve inherited.. -self-esteem. These few days, recently I’ve been having bad dreams.. along with it.. I’ve been doubting myself.. I am on this very serious project, which will determine whether I will graduate or not. Too much things too do, in so little time. 11 August is the deadline, I’m only on 70% I could say.. I saw movies, CG (Computer Graphics). Yes it inspires me a lot, but just how do one actually do it. I can’t figure that out. I followed every steps shown in network, but yet the result was rather disappointing. Nothing has gone the way I expected it to be..

But that’s not just the thing that’s pressurizing me.. I’m sure everyone out there are in this fight too.. Your love life..
How do I actually start off with this.. I don’t know.. But one thing for sure.. in order to achieve.. A change in myself I must do.. But where do I start.. I don’t know.. I’m just a lost child now.. I can’t figure out how to start, where to begin.. And i doubted myself too..Not very must an optimist I am now.. This problem has troubled me for too long… Will I ever be able to win this fight..? To claim what’s mine.. Time will tell.. as I’ll write my fate.

Cruise, The Fight has begun.